Saturday, March 25, 2006

What a Day!

Wow. I had the most amazing day Friday. As Tina shared, I'm a finalist in the Golden Heart!! I still can't believe it!

Okay, I just pinched myself, and it hurt, so it must be real.

Some notes to self on the big phone call (the one I've agonized over for so many years):

*Don't let your husband get on the phone on GH day unless he knows how to work the call waiting button.
*Better yet, don't let him get on the phone at all.
*Don't start muttering OHMIGOSH until after the person finishes her sentence or you might miss the good part.
*Write everything down!

Now, more thoughts on my post from Thursday regarding hope...

Once burned, it's hard to hope again. But, somehow, most of us have that little seed inside of us just waiting, waiting for the perfect moment to bloom again. And I think, at least for Christians, it's because we know that, ultimately, God can do anything. And that maybe this time is going to be in God's perfect timing.

I have to admit, though, that any hope I had the morning before the GH call was very guarded. I told myself over and over again not to count on anything. (Even as the phone rang, causing my heart to pound a gazillion miles per second, and it was my mom.) But still, there was this little voice in my head that kept saying, hey, wouldn't it be cool if God's timing was so perfect that it happened this year while in Atlanta? And how cool if that was followed by a sale?

It's enough to make me wonder if this is going to be My Year. But , I know so many who've finaled, even won the GH, and still not sold. So I'm going to be realistic.

But wouldn't it be really, really cool?

Yes, it would. There's always hope!

Missy :)
2006 Golden Heart Finalist!!!!!!! Ohmigosh, ohmigosh, ohmigosh!!!

Thursday, March 23, 2006

Hope that creeps up on you...

Well, it's been ages since I've posted (or even checked in). Life has been crazy. Add Strep throat into the mix (yes, me included) and it's even crazier.

I do believe all my children will make it back to school tomorrow. So I may get some writing done for a change! Oh, and it's also the day of ... (insert reverb here) ... Golden Heart finalist phone calls.

I know from writers groups that I'm in that it's a day of tension for everyone who entered-- stomach aches, endless hours waiting for the phone to ring. And for most of us, crushing disappointment.

A couple of years ago, I had a manuscript that had done well in many contests. I was SO hopeful for a GH final as well. I thought, "This is my year!" Then I began to get calls from critique partners who had gotten The Call. But still, my phone didn't ring. Even late in the day, I hoped maybe my caller had just had trouble getting through. Of course everyone and their brother had gotten through to share THEIR good news. (Yes, I clung to hope. And I realize now that I was delusional. )

When night came, I can't describe the despair I felt. Crushing is a good attempt, though, because it felt so heavy on my chest and in my gut.

And I learned my lesson. I would NEVER hope for a GH final again. I might enter, but I would never consider it a possiblity. I would never let myself get excited about it again.

Now tomorrow is the big day. And RWA National is in Atlanta this year. Close enough that my husband could come to the awards ceremony were I to final...

Oh, no. Here I go again. Hope. Somehow, I've let that little bugger creep up on me.

But isn't that better than giving up and never trying?

I don't know. Ask me again tomorrow.

(Let me know what you think. Did you enter? Did you dare hope? Did you final?)

Saturday, March 11, 2006

Spring is here!

It's spring in Georgia! Today hit 78 degrees. Flowers are blooming (so my eye's been twitching, and my nose has been itching). Our Japanese magnolia is magnificent, and luckily didn't get hit with frost this year. It seems as if one day a tree is bare and the next it's full of flowers. Maybe it's just me. Maybe I'm not attentive enough.

Our schedule has been crazy lately. Flag football was extended by rain delays, so it's run into soccer. Two of my children are playing soccer, and the other is playing tennis. Add in tennis lessons and piano lessons, and it's a recipe for weeknights at the drive-thru window with eating in the car.

Today is Saturday, and we had a great day for soccer. My son the goalie made tons of saves so it was really exciting. Now we're home, and I think I'll actually cook a real meal!

A night at home. Ahhhh.....

Let me hear about your weekend.

Monday, March 06, 2006

New to blogging...

Well, I'm brand new at this, so it'll take a few days to get set up. I hope you'll come back soon!